He wants to close his eyes
He needs to close his eyes
but with horror on the mind, cannot.
He wishes to close his eyes
but it is not granted.
He prays to close his eyes,
there is no answer; only the knowledge,
if eyes close, he waves good-bye to sanity.
He hungers for rest
but it does not come.
He hungers for relief
but his soul screams in fright.
he hungers for light in the dark
but the visions of terror are darker
than it all.
He wonders how long he can last
the evil basks in his doubt.
He wonders what the monster is
the evil trying to get out.
He wonders what will come
when the evil replaces his soul.
He wonders. . . .
. . .What will be left of him when he falls,
no longer the dove, will those he loves
pay the cost?